Jesus Christ does not hold your past against you. He’s waiting for you with open arms. You need to accept this, by quit discounting yourself. Quit the thought that you can’t pray for something big, you don’t have the faith, you don’t come from the right family. God says you can ask for things that seem impossible for with God all things are possible. Yes, you asking for big things and receiving them is possible with God now and forever. That’s it!!!